For months I've been meaning to read this un-puttdownable book for kids aged, I'm guessing 9 - 12, by Louis Sachar. A book called "Holes" and it's all about what someone might do when they're in a situation they have no control over. It was really inspiring. In the early noughties, they made a film of it which I don't want to see, because the book is definitely going to be better. The writing is so spare, and there are moments where you really feel scared, or laugh out loud. The main character learns and grows and there is a good ending. In my reading I got some good ideas for some other projects I'm working on too, and that's always good. I hope you enjoyed this reading of it, and, I look forward to reading it together again when you're a bit bigger.
Anyway, so I was lying on my tummy at the weekend, finishing this great read and I felt something in my belly. Like a bubble rising and softly popping, or the shimmer of a butterfly's wing. I wanted it to happen again, but it didn't. Not immediately.
The other night night, deep in a sad place that I cannot explain, I was curled up in a foetal position, much like you are in right now, and I felt that frisson not once, but twice, perhaps three times. Were you trying to tell me something? Was it a 'knock-knock' joke? Or were you telling me to get out of that deep dark hole I'd dug for myself?
I'm back to my normal self, and I'm happy again, knowing that you're there. You always keep me company and I have so much to be happy for. How can I ever feel sad again?
The only thing I'm deep in now is deeply in love with you darling little soul
Love your Soul Mama (and Papa)
Our babies are much wiser beyond their years, months, weeks and days. Not only do they do the unexpected, they have a wonderful sense of doing the most amazing things when we need it most. The first kicks, smiles, cooing, belly laughs, cuddles...the list could go on forever. Not only is it a beautiful reality check, it's just absolutely beautiful.
ReplyDeleteI hope you're feeling better, Jane. Sometimes we need to go to a sad place to find the happy places again. Enjoy your little one's squirming and your amazing body that's growing and nourishing a gorgeous little soul. xxx
Wise words from an experienced mama. Thanks, Lenise.
ReplyDeleteFeeling the baby makes me realise that ... a baby is coming! It sounds so strange, but now I'm really longing to meet him or her. But I want to enjoy this time now, because it's also very special.
I hope it's the hormones that make me feel down now and then. It only lasts a moment, but it hangs around in my mind for a bit too long. I have so much to be grateful, and being a mum-to-be is one of those!
So blessed.
Thanks for your comment, Lenise.
xx